Friday, August 28, 2009

Wallowing in self-pity

Nothing much more to say about this.

I'm mulling over an idea about me, anger, and my weight. I think I'm angry that I let myself get so obese and stay that way for so long. And I know I'm angry that it now seems like my entire life is centered around not gaining weight. There's no time for anything else.

That's as far as I've gotten in the mulling.


  1. I understand completely about this. There have been many moments in my life where I have "wallowed" as well (and had my little "pity-parties."). I'll get angry at myself, wishing that my anger would be enough for me to stop eating, to change, or somehow motivate me. It usually doesn't work. It just goes along in a cycle (and also for me, a lot of guilt!). I wish I could say I knew how to get out of it, but I do know that the longer the wallow, the longer it is harder to get out of it and the deeper it gets. Somehow, you have to look on the positive side-- though believe me, is sometimes really hard to do.
    I hope that it gets better for you! :-)

  2. Sunflower Daisies - thanks for adding a comment. I didn't even get to the guilt part I sometimes feel.

    I also wrote about this on my private blog on and I think just writing about it and letting other people know I'm struggling has helped some.

  3. Maura, all I can say is I understand. We're here for support. I do think that writing is therapeutic--it helps the person mulling things over, as well as those reading it. One book I really enjoyed was Shauna Reid's book Amazing Adventures of Diet Girl. I believe she lost over 150 lbs. Several times in the book she gained back 20-30 lbs. She doesn't sugarcoat anything about her experiences and it gave me some perspective on my personal behaviors/beliefs. ((hugs!))


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