So what am I doing to de-stress? I'm taking back the kitchen. Except for grilling our steak, I'm cooking dinner tonight. Herbed green beans and oven roasted new potatoes. And a 'French' peach cake - it's a cross between a cobbler and a cake. And it's sinful. And it's yummy. And well - it's once a year when the fresh peaches are in.
I am also making gazpacho for myself to have for lunch next week and some tuna salad. I spent this morning in the kitchen and it felt great.
About the gym - while it add a little bit of stress, I do like going. I LOVE the elliptical machine. It's hard, but I can really tell I needed to rachet up my workouts. I'll hit the spin class again next weekend.
While I'm not thrilled with my weight right now, I have to admit I'm considering the notion of not trying to lose. I'm maintaining - and have maintained successfully. I'm healthy. My body isn't quite what I want it to be - but I don't know that I am truly willing to do what's necessary (less food, even more movement) to take off these last 10-20 lbs. This in itself causes stress.