I am now 25 lbs over weight. I am 15 lbs heavier than what used to be my ‘happy’ weight and I don’t like it This week is really and truly the worst week of the year to be worried about weight, but I must stop the gain hemorrhage.
It’s stress. I’m worried about money. I’ve been very worried about D. It’s also partly about my job. There are parts to it that sometimes get to me. I MUST come up with a non-food reward system for Wednesdays. Something to look forward to. Maybe I start going out to lunch on Wednesdays after Judy gets back from lunch. Maybe that’s what I need to do. Go for a walk around the mall. I don’t like sitting on the front desk and I tend to reward myself with food.
And it’s also not wanting to talk to D about it. He knows. But still.
I guess that's part of it - I feel embarrassed about the weight gain.
I do crave the simplicity of OPTIFAST. I did well my first week of soups, but after that it sort of fell apart. I still think it’s a good plan.
OPTIFAST worked like this:
150 calories @ 8:30 AM
150 calories @ 11:30 AM
150 calories @ 2:30 pm
150 calories @ 5:30 pm
150 calories @ 8:30 pm
As much as I’d like to keep that schedule, I can’t. So – I go on 1200 calories per day. How can I split that up and enjoy dinner with Dan?
150 calories @ 9:30 AM – yogurt and sweet potato or nuts
150 calories @ 1:30 pm – soup with chicken or shrimp
150 calories @ 3:30 pm – protein shake made with Sobe 0-Cal Life water for the vitamins
750 calories @ 7:30 pm - whatever D cooks. I will be asking him to cook lightly most of the time
OK – that’s going to have to be how it works. And it’s not negotiable, just as OPTIFAST wasn’t negotiable
I know it is not optimal for me to not split my calories more evenly throughout the day, but if I don't do it this way, dinner with D gets ruined. If this doesn't work, then dinner with D will have to stop, at least how we know it today. We'll need to eat separate food and he will hate it.